Poor Aidan he has been sick all day. He woke up this morning saying his stomach hurt and he has been asleep every since. It is 2 pm in the afternoon and he is STILL asleep. I have been sitting her studying this dang Microbiology class while Aidan lays next to me. Need to do a reality check, I am not really studying, I have been to busy chatting it up with old friends, reading blogs etc. :) Ok so I am addicted. I told James this morning I need to find a way to make money by reading and posting on blogs. HE HE He told me I would really need to be talented to find a way to do that. I was like "WHAT!, IS THAT A CHALLENGE", nice encouragement from the other half huh. Well James said that to the wrong person. I am up for the challenge. Anyone have any ideas? Then I can rub it in....
Changing the subject....I just love little Aidan so much. I sometimes get teary eyed because I almost lost him 2 year ago w/ the car accident and also Ethan back when he was 4 when his appendix broke. I just want to squeeze and hug them all. Call me a big teddy bear. Love hugging the kids! Ethan doesn't like me hugging him anymore. WINK WINK. Looking back over the years, I often wonder why Heavenly Father has blessed me so much with saving my boys lives. In both instances they should not have been alive.
Ethan went 10 days with a burst appendix and abscesses all over his abdomen and in and out of hospitals all summer long. He was so sick by the time he went into the hospital he had lost 10 lbs. He could of suffered a perforated bowel because he had a HUGE grapefruit size abscess in his bowels, and 2 other in his cavity. He could have died.
I still have residual anxiety over Aidan's accident. I have to check the cars to make sure their is no kids behind it. I get nervous when I don't see the kids and especially Aidan. My kids make fun of me now because I actually start getting Anxious when Aidan is somewhere I can't see him. And to always know that it was ME that accidentally backed up into him, just kills me.
The one thing I do know is that the power of the priesthood does work! All those ward members that where there when it happened and was their to administer to him, you all saved him!!! He came out of it with only some scars and no internal injuries. It ended up being a 70k medical bill, that how extensive it was. Luckily we have good insurance!
Why do I still beat myself up over it. I know it was just an accident but it still haunts me. I just can't see a life without these wonderful kids I have. Yes mother hood is very Hard!! Especially with the active boys I have been blessed with. It takes a certain personality to handle very active boys! It does helpe I was raised with 5 brothers myself! I have been extremely blessed, and someone is watching over me and my kids! There is no other explanation. :)
Ok enough with the sappy stuff. I get to sappy sometimes. My next post will be controversial post, hey I need to compete with Ms. Tami's blog posts. :)
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