I am so bummed....

I just got this notice today from Pacific Lutheran University:

Thank you for your interest in the nursing program at Pacific Lutheran University; we appreciate your efforts in submitting an application for this admission cycle. The School of Nursing Recruitment, Admission and Progression (RAP) Committee reviewed your application for admission to the baccalaureate nursing program. We regretfully inform you that you have not been admitted to the nursing program (2008-09).

I am so bummed. I thought for sure I was going to get in. They must have had some awesome nursing application. I am not giving up. It's just my first line of NO's before I get that one yes. Actually if I did not get into this university the chances of me getting into the other programs are slim because they accepted more people then the rest of the programs. The other programs I have applied to only accept 20-30 people a year. :(

I wish I had finished the nursing degree I started back in 2001 before I moved to Seattle. I was doing so good in the program too. I was #5 out of 80 people and there was only 6 A's total that year in the program and I was #5 grade wise.

I probably realistically should have finished school when James and I got married before I had the kids. I should have listened to my Patriarchal Blessing I got when I was 18. It actually told me that I would be going to school and that I would be the best in my field. It also said that I NEED to get a degree (don't know why my P.B.  was so adamant about me getting a degree but it was). Sad Part is it actually said in bold print, these exact words of "DO NOT WASTE TIME". Now I know why it was telling me this. It is really hard being in school with kids and now it's even harder to get accepted to these programs because I have no experience because I have been a stay at home mom for 12 years, not that it hasn't been rewarding.

I am not giving up, Kari never gives up. I already shot and email off to the school of Nursing to see if by any chance I could get on the waiting list.

I know being a Nursing is what I am suppose to do besides being a mom (that is #1 for me), I can feel it in my bones. I might have to take the long route in getting it....CNA....LPN...RN etc but I am going to do it.  Which really sucks considering I already have 112 credits hours.  UHMMMMM. I am still bummed. I have not been killing myself in this Dang Microbiology class to give up, NO Way!!! :)